I am back with another topic for the “Dealing with it” series. I wanted to talk about Suicide in honor of September being Suicide Prevention Month. I recently was invited to a program dealing with this topic and that has really made me look at myself and thing differently. I have somewhat dealt with suicide. I am a past victim of wrist cutting. And if you read my last “Dealing with it” post, I talked about my struggles with my weight and how I deal with it now. All of that drove me to that dark place. Many people don’t know this about me, not even my family. During high school, I went on this gothic, wearing all black for “fashion” reasons as I would call it then. Without knowing it, I crying out for help. It was the toughest time for me because I was trying to accept myself and my body image. Even the happiest person that you know has down times and every one goes through things differently. I chose to hurt myself to “release” the pain. I regret it now because one day I could’ve ended my life. I needed someone to be there for me, to talk me through the pain. I didn’t have anyone I could relate to. This was the only thing I felt was right.
I believe it is important that everyone recognizes the signs and the importance of taking actions when those signs are seen.
- Threats or comments about killing themselves, also known as suicidal ideation, can begin with seemingly harmless thoughts like “I wish I wasn’t here” but can become more overt and dangerous
- Increased alcohol and drug use
- Aggressive behavior
- Social withdrawal from friends, family and the community
- Dramatic mood swings
- Talking, writing or thinking about death
- Impulsive or reckless behavior
There are also Risk factors that may trigger suicidal emotions:
- A family history of suicide.
- Substance abuse. Drugs and alcohol can result in mental highs and lows that exacerbate suicidal thoughts.
- Intoxication. More than one in three people who die from suicide are found to be currently under the influence.
- Access to firearms.
- A serious or chronic medical illness.
- Gender. Although more women than men attempt suicide, men are four times more likely to die by suicide.
- A history of trauma or abuse.
- Prolonged stress.
- Age. People under age 24 or above age 65 are at a higher risk for suicide.
- A recent tragedy or loss.
- Agitation and sleep deprivation.
Although everyone may not exhibit these signs, it is important that any abnormal behavior to be taken into notice. If you are someone who has not dealt with suicidal thoughts, there is always someone around who needs your help. Be that person for them. Please use any resources available to you or someone who may need them:
- I’m looking for more information, referrals or support: NAMI HelpLine 800-950-NAMI (6264)
- If you or someone you know is in an emergency, call The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or call 911 immediately
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